Same Old Song and Dance

As you may have guessed by now, I did not get the Seattle run. It ended up loading on Monday at lunch, and with a Thursday morning delivery, there was just no way I could pull it off. 3200 miles in less than 72 hours. I am just not that ambitious anymore.

As for the rest of the story, it is truly the same old song and dance. Quick run up to New England this week. Home by Wednesday. Now that the seat has been changed out, I am no longer have leg problems. I also changed out my mattress at home, so all of my aches and pains should be a thing of the past.

I still have an ungodly amount of tension built up in my shoulders, so I bought a HoMedic Massager. Now if only I could find someone to use it on me. Oh , it works great, but it is difficult to truly relax your shoulders if you are using them to operate the device. I have even noticed that when I am running, I tend to draw up my shoulders into my ears which causes more discomfort and I have to literally remind myself to push them back down. You would be amazed at how a simple tension can zap you of your energy. As long as I push down with my shoulders, I can run fairly well, but if they climb upwards, I am noticeably more winded and less likely to meet my goal.

I have determined the exact cause of this particular phase on anxiety. In case you were not able to figure this out for yourself. ( I always seem to be the last to catch on, so I am sure you were already aware..LOL ) The latest malfunction with my truck!! The one where I lose traction. Yeah, still having those issues. I do fine until I hit the rain, or the construction zones with grooved surfaces. I hit a storm on Sunday, and after doing a little sliding around, I was overwrought with emotion. Enough is enough. But by then, the little things were setting me off.

For example, there is a certain YouTube personality that I was suppose to meet several months ago. He lives fairly close by, but after a few conversations and some very offensive emails, I discarded the notion of ever befriending him. He disappeared for a few months, then out of the blue, he sends a few text messages. I suppose because of my lack of response, he then felt the need to begin insulting me. I really could not care less what he thinks, my only concern is that he does live in the nearby vicinity. This is the type of personality I would fear. Someone whom might require a restraining order. He is just that weird. Surprisingly, I am not the only woman he has behaved in this manner with. There are several other ladies on YouTube who have been the object of his insane jealously, resulting in very offensive and insulting remarks. So, I am keeping my eyes open. This one is a fruitcake!!

but back to anxiety......

On the way home, I hit a few more areas where the truck began to slip and slid. Having driven trucks for 12 years now, I am very aware of how a truck should be behaving. Not much would make me excited or put me into a white knuckle panic mode. This particular circumstance pretty much ruins the whole trip for me as I am constantly fearful for my own safety. All it takes is one little slip and I am nervous as a cat in a room full of rockers.

This week, the solution is to order new tires and new shocks. Let's hope this helps, but I do not think I will get the new items until after next week, but I could be wrong. Just so you know, we do not stock supplies, so every repair is made after placing an order for parts.

Oh, now I am just rambling......

I do have a few potential positive elements to blog about in the very near future.....So all is not lost!

What Part of NO don't you understand...?

Since the last post, I have received another 2 phone calls and 7 more text messages...

Is this guy for real...

Even if I had not point blank told him that I was not attracted and did not want to date, I would think that my refusal to answer him AT ALL would give him a clue...

But I am happy to know that he has a new horse, a new dog and really wants to be friends with me.... Just some of the text messages he has sent...

I Give Up.. for now...

My days with Internet dating have come to a close for now.... I think I will spend the next few months just taking care of me and getting ready for all the wonderful changes that are going to take place this year... Not to say that I would turn down a date with a handsome stranger, if the opportunity comes along. I am just not going to keep looking for that opportunity.

My last encounter with an On-Line match went a little something like this.

A fellow that I was exchanging emails with back when I met Superman, sent me a message. I thought I might as well see what he had to say, so I began to talk to him again... We had several phone conversations, along with several emails, and agreed to meet on my next trip to Bama. Which just so happened to be this weekend...

On Saturday, I set sail for another visit with my brother's family and along the way I stopped to meet him.. We had agreed to a quick meet and greet, but no intentional "date" was scheduled.

I sat waiting in the Wendy's parking lot for him to arrive. When I saw him pull up, my heart sank. He was yet another of those fellows who was very pleasant to communicate with, but I felt disappointed when he pulled up in an older model mini-van... It was not so much the mini-van that bothered me, but it still made an impression on m e nonetheless. What did bother me was the fact that his teeth were absolutely horrible.. Not like meth amphetamine horrible, just all out of place... And I am thinking why would anyone over the age of , no, I take that back.... why would anyone go through life with their teeth so obviously neglected.. Okay, maybe he did not have dental insurance.... But still, if he has no insurance, then what other areas of his life were also neglected?? See where I am going with this?

It was literally all I could do to sit there and drink a soda while exchanging some very superficial pleasantries.. Lucky for me, he had some urgent errands to run.. He did ask if I would like to hang around and he would show me his horses... I excused myself politely with the excuse that my Brother was waiting on me to arrive.... which was not really a lie, I mean, bro was expecting me even though he was sleeping and was not a bit concerned about what time I would arrive... Oh well, it worked anyways...

I kind of felt bad for this fellow, because he obviously knew his teeth were a distraction and tried to hide them which made it even harder for me to not notice, but okay! He left with a simple, "I will talk to you later." to which I replied that I would contact him in a few days because I would be busy with family plans.....

In the course of two and a half days at my brothers house, I received 17 text messages from him. After the first one, I did respond with "I will contact you after I am through with family plans." After the second one, I turned my phone off.... When I turned it back on, not only were there a total of 17 from him, there was also another text from a local number that I did not know asking who I was...

I kind of get the feeling he was texting me from another number, just to see if I would answer.. Playing detective if you will.... There is no other reason that I can think of that I would get a message asking who I was, unless I had called a strange number, and I had not.

Needless to say, even if the teeth had not been so ughh... the incessant text messages were enough to scare me away...

Oh , he just sent me another one!! ...... Crap......

Okay, so I just sent him one explaining that I was not attracted to him, which is an important factor to me, and that I wished him luck.. Hopefully that will be the end of that...

EDIT.... Not five minutes after sending the last text, I received a phone call from him.. Yes, I did address the massive amount of texts he had sent... So, anyways, he wanted to know what I was talking about.. I explained... He offered an explanation, which I completely understood. Then he tells me to not freak out on him.. That he is not some kind of freak, but that his daughter got a hold of the phone and was playing with.... See, that is understandable considering that the last 7 messages all said the same thing.. But what he failed to see was the part of the text where I plainly stated that I was not attracted to him, and would not be interested in dating him.... Sheeesh.. my phone is off. I hate having to do that, but what else could I possibly say to make him understand?.....